So hard

When someone occupies so much space in you and they leave, you'll be left so vacant you dont know what to do. 

Did someone took away my soul when i was asleep? I feel so empty. 

You promised me you'll be nice. But everytime something happens, it'll end up being my fault again. What happened to promises? 

You dont know the pain you've caused, because you're not the one carrying the hurt.

Why? I keep asking myself why? Why dont i deserve to be loved and pampered like everyone else? Why must i always be rational and sane? Why cant i have tantrums too? Why cant you love me as i am?

Mind's a whirl and i really miss the person who'll hug and console me when things go wrong. Please stop hurting. Please.