Monday, June 24, 2013

So miserable

Do you know how much it hurts when the person who matters most to you treat you like you didn't matter?

I miss being happy. 

Be strong

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

Thursday, June 6, 2013


Money cant buy us what we need. Not as in material needs, but emotional needs. 

Pretty much an oxymoron. But often, people cant understand it. Not too sure why, but i supposed some are blessed with all the things they ever need. 

I'm a lone ranger. I sometimes dislike company, especially bad ones. Or those which i feel are making use of me. But isnt that the essence of company? I make use of you and vice versa. Somehow i just dont like this feeling of people getting together for the sake of this. 

I wish i can survive alone, but i was built to be dependent. I really need listening ears sometimes, but its a total tragic to browse through the entire list and realise i dont have people i can talk to. 

Therefore, i need friends. I may not need to know who are you, nor do you need to know me well. We will just talk to each other, maintain the mystery, and keep each other sane. 

Hit me up,

If i find it comfortable enough, we can talk. Promise!

Sunday, June 2, 2013

Sunday for the Outliers

Day started an inch before noon, and had to rush to the kid's place.
Teaching has always been something I love doing.
Be it music, or curriculum subjects, I always feel so unexplainably happy when I see these kids learn.
Of course, improvements are bonuses, but at the end of the day, what I see myself doing is influencing people.
Many might not agree/know, but an educator's like is all about Impacting.
You impart your knowledge to a sheep who lost its way in this paper chase world, one day the sheep might become a shepherd himself and thank you astronomically.
Went food-less till my body objected by shivering and threatening to 'force shutdown' with a bad giddy spell.

After battling with myself till I finally got home, fed myself with lots of Greenfield's and carbo, and now I feel like I need to shop so bad.
Haha, have you felt like you need to spend money to reward yourself after a long day at work?
I do feel like this more than I should, I feel. 

7pm, but the skies seem to habour a 12pm sun which refuses to go away.
My sunburnt favourite returned with a sun scorched face and I thought it looked kinda cute.
Flushed face and tanned skin. Always good for me.

Just 20 mins in the room, and when I stepped out, it seems like the 12pm sun decided to pull an MIA.
Skies turned mysteriously dark and I thought that was kind of beautiful.

Snuggling up to you now and for time to come.
Feels so good, so good.

Thank you for loving me :)