Tuesday, September 18, 2012

You can cheat and you can lie

But you can never escape.


Been sleeping at 430 and 3 odd for the past few days. Feels as though I was able to steal additional time into my life beyond the typical 24 hours every one else has.

Doesn't it feel good to live life a little fuller than everyone else? ☺

Monday, September 17, 2012

Lost world

Took 106. Over slept. Took a bus back to SP. Realised that lessons was actually supposed to be at SIM. Waited for a cab. Lesson starts at 7. It's 7:10 and I just got up a cab.

Super damn angry and caught in a seemingly endless jam. I hate this shit. How many times do I have to lose my way?!

Sunday, September 16, 2012


Someone called me an ugly duckling. I don't deny.

Not saying I'm a swan, but I don't think I'm anything less either. Because you love me no less either way :)


Friday, September 14, 2012

Happy birthday!

For the 21st time!
Remained sober, no clubbing, no shisha, nothing that is "badass" or "cool".
Happy 21st, to the girl who thinks she's grown up :)

Sunday, September 9, 2012

I hate seeing you sad

Pencil: I'm sorry.... 
Eraser: For what? You didn't do anything wrong. 
Pencil: I'm sorry cos you get hurt b'cos of me. Whenever I made a mistake, you're always there to erase it. But as you make my mistakes vanish, you lose a part of yourself. You get smaller and smaller each time. 
Eraser: That's true. But I don't really mind. You see, I was made to do this. I was made to help you whenever you do something wrong. Even though one day, I know I'll be gone and you'll replace me with a new one, I'm actually happy with my job. So please, stop worrying. I hate seeing you sad. :)

Found this.
I wanna be your eraser, maybe not forever (cause I'd wear out), but for as long as can be.

Sweetness part II:


Giving someone your time is the most sincere gift you can ever give.
A part of you had been handed to them and its something you can never ever take back.

Feeling like a marshmallow today.
With rainbow sprinkles.

Thursday, September 6, 2012


So painful/empty at the same time. I feel like just seriously ending everything I ever had. Now and here.

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

There she goes

Watching videos on wedding proposals because i need to let it out.
everyone has excess tears sometimes right?

wedding proposals never fail to make me cry. all the time.
i mean, its already hard to find someone who loves you, let alone, love you forever.


people love for the wrong reasons.
they think they know you, but in actual fact maybe not too much.
so many other factors to consider. but maybe i'm a fool. because i still believe in "us".

watched Xiaxue's wedding proposal on clicknetwork.
her words.....speaks my heart.
not an exact quote, but something that goes:
"before i met him,  never knew someone could love me. i'm so foul mouthed and all. but he does"
"very much" her husband added.

really fortunate.
i wish i can too.

you chose to struggle.
you chose to give up.
you chose to leave. again. and again.

at the end of the day, it's not about what i had/what i once thought i had. its about what i have.
and almost always, it amount to nothing.
any idea how much it pains each time you build up wall, let someone break through all of it, and you have to build up the wall again. brick by brick. so freaking painful but it happens.

i guess i'd never learn.

never knew i could hate myself so much.