Late nights

We cannot choose who we love, but we can choose how we love them

I still miss you very much

And although i might not have made a lot of sound choices in my life, i believe it was the sanest at that time. 

I cannot promise us a good future. 

Nor could we even had a comfortable life and there might be a lot of struggle. 

So i chose to love you by letting you go. 

Just because we are not together now, it does not mean i dont love you anymore. 

You will ALWAYS hold a place in my heart. 

Till the day i dont exist anymore. 

I miss you so much. 

Broken

Sick - not because i want to. Not because i choose to. Not because i caused it. 

But you said it. You said i can leave with whoever i think will treat me better. Thats when i know i will never have you back. Thats when i know i will never have someone who will love me fully. 

Love is cheap. So is life. 

Feeling really sad these days thinking about work, and everything else. 

These thoughts come back haunting me again whenever im sad. They never leave. They keep telling me that if im gone, all these pain and struggles will be too. 

Sometimes they tell me i deserve to be gone. Like how i made him gone. Like life is easily trampled upon. Like no one values him. And there is never a day i can feel whole again. Anymore.