Fear

Its big and painful but i really hope its not a tumour. I cant afford to be sick :( 

Breaks my heart to imagine my parents being sad or worried cause of me. Sitting at Starbucks and wondering whats wrong with me. 

I know i'm worried but i just cant bring myself to go to the hospital. I threw thr referral letter aside cause i want to think i am fine. Maybe it'll go away. I hope it does :(

Things i keep telling myself these days: You Only Live Once.

Trying to love myself a little more but really i just wanna cry cause i dont wanna cut my face. 

Be with me my Angel.