Gratitude

Xmas used to be a waste of money - spending money to buy gifts for people i dont care about just for the sake of celebration. I was miserable and i didnt enjoy. 

Xmas today was heartwarming. We took time to walk to a quiet bistro and had a hearty breakfast. Then took bus to watch a movie. Strolled around the mall hand in hand. 

Youre closer to my heart than you'll ever know. 

Thank you for teaching me to be kind, honest, helpful and humane. As much as i try to be. 

I dont need to have my heart racing or my face flushing all the time. I'd rather have my heart flushing and brimming with security more than anything. 

Till the day i breathe my last

Love, 

H

After dark

Shhhh

The monsters...

They roam. 

Always in my heart

Never given a chance to celebrate your birth, never even had a name

Still an ache in the same spot, over and over

Greed

Off the shelf

He said hes gonna marry me in Paris

<3

Repost

Times like these

I just wish you're here to comfort me. 

Its tiring enough but why are you so distant? 

I'm not sure if i should stay away or should i keep trying. 

Hehe

You set my heart on fire

So much. 

I love you lee minho! 😚 

Choices

Dont let failure get to your heart

Dont let success get to your head

Do i have enough for luxuries that girls are posting on ig?

Yeah i do

Do i have enough to go for tea parties all the time?

Yeah i do

And so on

But i dont do all these

I choose travelling because if money can help me create an experience i'll never forget

If money can help me tell a colourful story of my life 

If money can bring me to places i could have only dreamt

Why not?

Better than a stone on the neck

Better than an ore on the wrist

Better than a slab of leather carried around

I have a tummy full of knowledge and eyes that seen so much beauty

When u see how small you are compared to the rest of the world, all the possessions fade away

They pale 

They cant hold up against

Idk bout you, but a 24 (almost) year old me thinks like this now

I want everyone to know

I need a shoulder. 

Work's making it hard to breathe. And i feel like crying sitting at my desk. Sigh pie. 

Dear you

I dont know what i want anymore. At one moment this seems to be the best decision. The next moment, my world seemingly fell apart. 

I'll just sit here till my thoughts sober up. Till my heart knows what it wants. Why would it matter anyway?

Rage binge

I dont understand how im just so hungry all the time

I just had ice cream, cereal, milk, yogurt and a bag of potato skin chips. 

Now tummy be growling again

WHAT ON EARTH

Either or

Excitement of a new chase, or comfort in familiarity? 

Ours

We finally have our own car

Fingers intertwined while you look ever so loving

You lightly planted a kiss on the back of my hand

And in this moment

I swear we had our own little capsule of universe

Of infinity and beyond

Ways i annoy people

One of the many:

Bf: hey wanna listen to some songs?

Me: why you didnt ask if i have my earpiece with me thou

B: we can share mine! Its ok

M: eeee so gay

B: ??????????

And he proceeds to feel sad and affected because he explains "we are a couple what?! Whats wrong and gay about it?!"

Hahahahahahaha

Work hard

But play harder

Thank you

For your love

When i deserve it. And when i dont. 

Because i am a terrible person but you still do protect, assure, prioritise and love me. That's all i need from you. 

Thank you so much 😊☺️😍😘😚

只是太…

原谅我真的喝醉了
因为我真的想你了
一不小心就被寂寞
吞噬了爱著你的快乐
我知道这样不应该
也知道你会受伤害
只是不想再让自己对你太过依赖
我明白 你给你爱是真实地存在
喔 只是我不懂得如果去爱
才会让你想离开
因为我不知道
下一辈子是否还能遇见你
所以我今生才会
那麼努力 把最好的给你
爱你都变成伤害你
我们的爱快要窒息
不是故意 只是太爱你

Misfit

Sometimes you try your best but it just doesnt work out well. Then you keep trying. 

Its like trying to move mountains. The mountains look down on the insignificant you and continuously mock at your incessant efforts to move. It wouldnt budge. Even if you put in all your efforts and you feel hurt trying to do so. It wouldn't even pity you and move an inch. It just keep growing taller. Soon, the sun, the surroundings, and all the other things came together and put you down. Not because you're trying to move the mountain anymore. 

Because you are not one of them. 

And you will never be.

Maybe the sun may shed some light of pity and concern on you, but you must know, the sunlight cannot move the mountain either. When the rain comes, the sun still goes into hiding and you're all on your own again. 

Its so tiring. I just want to feel at home again. 

Seeking

Closure

L o v e

a little missing piece

did i post these before?

What else!

NO FRIED FOOD

NO CHILLI

NO CHOCOLATES

NO HEATY FOOD 

I DONE MOST OF THAT

LOST 3KG

WHAT ELSE DO YOU WANT FROM MY LIFE

DAMN IT FLU