What if it's still 2010?

There was a thing called "Finding my way back..." sometime ago.
Someone told me it will be deleted, but out of this anonymous surge of emotions, I went to type in the address ....poof. 
There I was, reading back at each and every post.

What if it's still 2010?
I would still have been taking A levels and life is probably much simpler.

It's all about studying - no need for work, no need for part time jobs, no need to worry about parental expectations of contributing to the household.

Of course, through all these, I grew.
Just wished that we were still talking.
Be it good, be it bad.

Reading how much I could have felt for a person at a point of time, it scares me to how much I am feeling for Baby now.
What if one day he decides to just walk out of my mess and leave me to lurch again?
What would I be left with?

I cannot stomach all these over and over again, y'know?

But if you know me well, you would probably know I'm the best liar on Earth.
I'd never let anyone who is not close to me know about my real plight.
Even if they're close, I am used to painting portraits of deceit that shows the greatest myriad of bliss and everything good.

2013, be good.
Please.

Brimming with bliss

D'you know how blissful it is to just fill your mind with someone, and a smile comes on automatically?

With you

Or so they've said:

Saw this on facebook and thought it is probably what most male would think of in most circumstances.
Copied the whole chuck + I know he will agree to 18 and 19 the most!
Heh.

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At last a guy has taken the time to write down this all Finally, the guys' side of the story. We always hear "the rules" from the female side. Now here are the rules from the male side. These are our rules! Please note.. these are all numbered "1" ON PURPOSE!

1. Men ARE not mind reader

2. Shopping is NOT a sport. And no, we are never going to think of it that way.

3. Crying is blackmail.

4. Ask for what you want. Let us be clear on this one: Subtle hints do not work! Strong hints do not work! Obvious hints do not work! Just say it!

5. Yes and No are perfectly Acceptable answers to almost every question.

6. Come to us with a problem only If you want help solving it. That's what we do. Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.

7. A headache that lasts for 17 months is a problem. See a doctor.

8. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument. In fact, all comments become null and void after 7 Days.

9. If you won't dress like the Victoria's Secret girls, don't Expect us to act like soap opera guys..

10. If something we said can be interpret in two ways and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one

11. You can either ask us to do something Or tell us how you want it done. Not both. If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.

12. Whenever possible , Please say whatever you have to say during commercials.

13. Christopher Columbus did NOT need directions and neither do we.

14. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings. Peach, for example, is a fruit, not A color. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have no idea what mauve is.

15. If we ask what is wrong and you say "nothing," We will act like nothing's wrong. We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle.

16. If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, Expect an answer you don't want to hear

17. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as football, cars, bikes or games

18. You have enough clothes.

19. You have too many shoes.

20. Thank you for reading this. Yes, I know, I have to sleep on the couch tonight; But did you know men really don't mind that? It's like camping.

Pass this to as many men as you can - to give them a laugh. Pass this to as many women as you can - to give them a bigger laugh. :-P

Inertia Ultimatum

Feeling like my gears are getting heavier and heavier.
Energy oozing out of every possible avenue whenever I'm awake.
I want to have a snuggly time with my amor aeturnus in bed, till what seems like 10 years later.

Night world x

Growing up

Luv you so much, little angel :)

Firsts

There's always a first.

First time I got so angry that I punched the wall. So hard my fists were bruised for a week. And there's still a hurting lump on one of the areas.

First time I sat at a playground wishing for it to rain. For I could maybe fall sick and have a good sleep. Maybe I can catch a cold bug or have burning fever so high it makes the world make sense again.

First time I down cider so quick that I didn't mind the brain freeze. I don't think I even felt it. But the awkward moment when the second bottle was going down, mega regurgitate. It felt so terrible. So, so terrible.

First time I puked till I see bright orbs. I thought maybe I could have been drunk. But all these orbs they seem so beautiful. Like little blitz of gems wandering around my eyes, blocking out what was in front of me. For a while.

First time I want to do so much for anyone. I want to have your heart filled with so much love it explodes. I want to have your stomach filled with so much of my personally prepared meals it warms your soul. I want to have you so happily satisfied you feel like you're on top of the world.

First time I get so angry I could have bitten through my own flesh. Ended up with a painful bruise again, but not like it would matter.

First time I disregard myself. Not even placing myself on any consideration. Given my narcissistic nature, this should be of absolute rarity. But yeah, somehow I managed to unconsciously demote myself.

First time my tummy hurts so bad and as I sat there wondering, puke keep forcing its way out. My toes freezing, heart broken and head's a total whirl. I swallow. I swallow my pride and every nano particle of negativity because I cannot imagine a day without you. I don't ever want to be left there all by myself again. It hurts too bad. I'd rather be a loser to the whole world than to risk losing an centimetre of you.

First time. I don't know how to deal with a quarrel/a fight. Never good at those, but with you I never want to win. I'd rather you be happy. Forever.