我也不想这样

 好累

好累

几时能闭上眼睛

然后永远睡着

不醒了

累了

总是感觉你不体贴我

感觉你厌倦我 嫌弃我

你要我独立不烦你 

你在工作不能说话 

你在休息不能动你

那我呢？

我累了没人疼我

我需要诉苦的时候只能往心里塞

我需要人陪的时候总得安慰自己

逼着自己独立

我累了

我也想要有人谅解

谅解我也只是个要人疼爱的女生

我也需要一个可以依靠的肩膀

Waseyo what’s up yo!

So! I’ve been sent 2 lip products from Waseyo / Velyvely.sg. I did not pay for the products but my opinions are independent.

I received a liquid lip and a lip crayon/liner/lipstick.

Liquid lip/“matt tint lipstick”:
Link: https://www.waseyo.com/products/vely-vely-matte-tint
https://www.velyvely.com.sg/products/matte-tint-lipstick
LAVVIT
The applicator is shaped to fit the lips well. And application is so simple!
Long lasting formula lasted me throughout the day without touch up
It is a bit tough to remove entirely though

Lip crayon/“air drawing lip pencil”:
Link: https://www.waseyo.com/products/vely-vely-air-drawing-pencil
https://www.velyvely.com.sg/products/air-drawing-lip-pencil
Light texture
The colour I got wasn’t something that suits my skin tone so I layered it under another colour. If you’ve got another darker lipstick colour which you find difficult to wear, you can layer a lighter colour underneath to brighten it up! :)
Great for layering as it is very lightweight.
Creamy
Not as lasting but it doesn’t transfer that easily either
Not sure if it’s just me, it kinda emphasizes my lip lines :(

Enjoy the below photos of the products :)

Hurt

心痛感覺得到嗎？

答案：是

Isn’t honesty a given?
Maybe it is too much to ask for.

Honesty is expensive. Do not expect it from cheap people.
Right...

Supposed

A day which i am supposed to be the most happy, but somehow all the expectations and stress is making me feel so weighed down and annoyed. 

I just want to say that people who needs your explanation are people who wont understand you. And people who understand you wont even ask for any explanation. 

The more you try to justify yourself to people who dont understand, they either just wont ever understand, or they will end up misunderstanding more. 

Tired of all the bullshit. Sometimes i think - isnt this person very money minded for doing this and this? But then again, i'm the one putting my mind on the money, thereby feeling this way - and aren't i the money minded one then?

Its hard to put a finger down to how much i want to draw the line. But all i want is... to be happy. 

But the more i try, the more i cant. 

Sigh. 

Pips

Work

Theres this very thin line between knowing what is right for you, and being a total self entitled jackass. 

My job made me realise this. 

Late nights

We cannot choose who we love, but we can choose how we love them

I still miss you very much

And although i might not have made a lot of sound choices in my life, i believe it was the sanest at that time. 

I cannot promise us a good future. 

Nor could we even had a comfortable life and there might be a lot of struggle. 

So i chose to love you by letting you go. 

Just because we are not together now, it does not mean i dont love you anymore. 

You will ALWAYS hold a place in my heart. 

Till the day i dont exist anymore. 

I miss you so much. 

Broken

Sick - not because i want to. Not because i choose to. Not because i caused it. 

But you said it. You said i can leave with whoever i think will treat me better. Thats when i know i will never have you back. Thats when i know i will never have someone who will love me fully. 

Love is cheap. So is life. 

Feeling really sad these days thinking about work, and everything else. 

These thoughts come back haunting me again whenever im sad. They never leave. They keep telling me that if im gone, all these pain and struggles will be too. 

Sometimes they tell me i deserve to be gone. Like how i made him gone. Like life is easily trampled upon. Like no one values him. And there is never a day i can feel whole again. Anymore. 

Jaded

Sometimes im tired

Its not the kind of tired when you can take a nap, or fall asleep and you'll not feel tired anymore. 

Its the kind of tired, where you have no more of yourself left in your body. 

No more. 

Belly rules the mind

Anniversaire

Gloomy

Skies little bit bluer today

Mood's little bit gloomier today

Feeling sad :(

But without a little rain, we wont have the rainbows isnt it?

花

从一哭就有人哄

变成

再苦也忍着笑

Jiayou

Work harder!!!

$$$

:(

Want to cry all the time

Not appreciated

我那么尽力为什么

慢慢淡化吧

也许好一点

I guess when you miss someone a lot, you tend to expect the same

But when someone is having fun without you, you become dispensible 

About right. 

Spent the day looking and planning for things we can do, see, go, have fun. 

Looking at possible ways to help with your back pain. Reading up. Learning more. 

Be understanding that you're tired. 

Not be annoying when a conversation leads nowhere. 

Who likes a conversation when you are the only party asking questions all the time and the response you get are likw reading an interview?

I'll just learn to fade away and not be so vested anymore. 

So different. So distant. So heart breaking. 

Konnichiwa

T-1.5months to Japan

Every time i see pictures of japan in its glorious ways, be it food, nature, touristy traps, my heart swells with so much pride and happiness. 

I think i will cry a lot when i go there. 

Little steps

I saved 2 snails today. 

I got 2 verbal compliments today. 

Hehe baby steps huishi

You will!

End

Is this really the end?

Wait for mama, maybe we can be together soon