2011

This year was (is?) fleeting. Blink blink, I've confirmed my place in school next year, worked for Mercedes Benz for a year, funded for someone else to go on a trip w me using my first few months' pay packet, ended a 3 years+ long relationship, rekindled friendships, and had loads of fun/heartaches!

Of course, fun wins. Hands down.

2012 will only get better. Cause I'd be so busy doing everything, the year will pass fast again. Not hopefully, but definitely. Cause I'll make things happen!

Things to look forward to next year: europe trip in December after the boys ORD, complete Uni year 1, a change of job (TELL ME IF YOU'VE GOT OFFERS!), and I'd probably wanna go visit a snowy place if all else allows for it.

These last few days was mad. Found out that some boys have really comfy beds and cosy rooms. And they don't actually smell bad leh! Hahaha. And I can't drink for nuts. Memory loss begins after the phase whereby the world starts spinning faster than usual. And poof, next evening we're good to go again. If only every day could be like that! Movies, food, long rides, alcohol and sleepytime without giving a hoot about anything else in the whole world. Almost like perfect, just that reality seeped in and tmr there's work :( wish today never ended!

Surround yourself with truthful people! And you'll realise that life isn't a dream after all. You can talk about anything and everything without getting judged or settled as "fucked up". Normal people, I would say. Instead of constantly having to doubt what others say, you start to enjoy and really feel like you aren't fighting a war every day, and there are people who really care for you. Wipe your tears when you cry, tuck you into bed when you get bloody drunk, help you drink up when you can't seem to win in any games at all, and you feel really safe and comfortable with them around. What's up bro! Real gentlemen!

Suddenly remembered something. Someone told me to tell my mom, "hi mom, I haven't been home for 2 days cause I've been to 2 boys' houses and wore their clothes and slept over." I think my mom will flip and start calling me by my full name again. Hahahaha I actually don't really like it when people do that yo. If you really like my surname then call me Miss Ng lor. Acceptable.

So much love and happiness that I don't think I can ever finish writing. This is the last week of 2011, and I definitely think I am happy the way I am now! Maybe not the kind of "physically happy" like hugs kisses cuddles and XXX, but definitely I'm happier mentally! A year which I'd look back and say that I have stood up for myself and made me who I am.

Food for thought: 有了你，之前的爱只是练习。